The Words He Would Say

I've been in a glummer mood the past week due to the current circumstances of my health. Right now I'm experiencing a pattern of illness that I have only had once, several years ago, and that for me was quite severe. I have been very worried as to what is causing me to be so ill. Those "episodes" of many years ago traumatized me, so anytime I experience certain symptoms, I have some serious PTSD, very scared that it's going to happen all over again. I have had a hard time dealing with it and trusting my Heavenly Father that answers will and He'll help me through it, whatever that may entail. My faith hasn't quite been winning over fear.  So I've been praying for trust, patience, and peace to get through it.
Today I had to drive to an IHC lab to get some tests done for this problem. I debated turning on the radio, as my head was pounding and I didn't want to interrupt the stillness I had been trying to maintain through the first half of the day. But sometimes good music helps my mood, so I punched the button and turned on K-Love. It was in the words of the song that was currently playing that the Lord sent a message to me:

Be strong in the Lord

And never give up hope

God's got his hands on you

So don't live life in fear

Forgive and forget but

Don't forget why you're here

Take your time and Pray

These are the words I would say

(Words I would Say, Sidewalk Prophets)

Only a few times as I've listened to the radio to a song that I have heard several times have familiar words jumped out to me, like a direct message from the Lord. It's like when you read a scripture you've read a hundred times and the hundred and first time it pierces you in a completely new way. It's the difference between seeing words typed on a page and seeing something like this:

Each line that above brought with it more peace to my tired and weary heart, more balm to my soul. It was what I needed to help me finish today with peace, and what I needed to get up and greet tomorrow, whether it comes with a calm body or a sick one.
I'm grateful the Lord speaks and goes about His works in many ways, including music. It sure helped me today.

Here's the link to the music video of the song :)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8t9u-LOa3OI

Words I would Say

Three in the morning, and I'm still awake
So I picked up a pen and a page
And I started writing just what I'd say
If we were face to face
I'd tell you just what you mean to me
Tell you these simple truths

Chorus
Be strong in the Lord
And never give up hope
You're gonna do great things
I already know God's got His hand on You
So don't live life in fear
Forgive and forget
But don't forget why you're here
Take your time and pray
These are the words I would say

Last time we spoke you said you were hurting
And I felt your pain in my heart
I want to tell you that I keep on praying
Love will find you where you are
I know 'cause I've already been there
So please hear these simple truths

Chorus

Say from one simple life to another
I will say come find peace in the Father
Be strong in the Lord
And never give up hope

You're gonna do great things I already know
God's got His hand on You
So don't live life in fear
Forgive and forget
But don't forget why you're here
Take your time and pray
And thank God for each day
His love will find a way
These are the words I would say

Power in the Spirit

As members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, we know that we have the Spirit of the Lord with us as we live righteously.  But do we fully realize that a literal portion of His Spirit dwells inside of us? And what about the true power that comes from that Spirit?

This was brought to the forefront of my mind from a scripture that hit me in a new way. I was reading the account of Ammon and King Lamoni's conversation in Alma 18, as Lamoni questions Ammon about the power he had to know his thoughts and slay so many robbers single-handedly.

King Lamoni asks him if he is the Great Spirit, and Ammon responds that he is not, but that he was called of God and had "a portion of that Spirit." Now in the past I thought this referred specifically to the Priesthood, but when I read it recently, felt it was to mean the Spirit we all have access to.

     "And a portion of that Spirit dwelleth in me, which giveth me knowledge, and also power according to my faith and the desires which are in God." (Alma 18:35)

A piece of Him is inside of us, His Spirit, His light. It is a gift from Him, power unto us to do great and marvelous things if we have and exercise faith. Using that Spirit, and being instruments in the hands of the Lord, Ammon and his brethren brought thousands of people to the knowledge of the truth and true conversion.

If only each of us would realize the privilege of this gift and use it to it's full capacity, our full capacity. Through many experiences the past year or so the Lord has shown me that I have more power to do good through that Spirit than I ever realized. He has shown me that He trusts me to follow that Spirit by giving me more and more of it. As He does, I have been more of an instrument in His hands.  Small and simple things have become great and marvelous. I hope to do more good with this amazing piece of God that dwells inside me.

A Return to Grace

Tonight I return to my favorite topic, the doctrine of Grace.  I love the grace of our Savior Jesus Christ, it is my "Motto word" for life. It is defined in the Bible Dictionary as "divine means of help of strength, given through the bounteous mercy and love of Jesus Christ." It is through the Atonement and our own repentance that we receive strength and assistance to do good works that we otherwise would not be able to maintain if left to our own means.  In the New Testament it is understood as "An attitude of goodwill that predisposes God to act positively towards" us.  It is nothing that we can trigger, manipulate, or control. We don't earn grace, we need it.

Today two things brought grace to the forefront of my mind. The first was something my Stake President said while teaching our Institute class about the Savior's time leading up to and in Gethsemane. The Atonement. That is what happened in Gethsemane all those years ago, our Redeemer covering all of our sorrows and our sins. President Featherstone closed the lesson with these words, "Nothing falls outside the realm of the Atonement. Absolutely nothing. Sometimes we don't believe that. But it is true."

There are a few particular people I know that do not believe that.  Some of their actions have been horrendous and they feel there is no way the Atonement could ever cover that. They have sinned too much, they are too far gone to make it back, they say. There is no way that God could love them after what they have done. Which brings me to the second thing, watching the latest Mormon Message, titled The Savior Wants to Forgive, about a man who felt that exact way.

In the video "a former addict and repeat convict shares his experiences with the Savior’s ability and willingness to forgive him again and again, even when he felt undeserving." I watched this not once, but three times because the message was so powerful. Click here to watch it, then read on:

http://www.mormonchannel.org/video/mormon-messages?v=3446112587001

I watched this before going to Institute, and it was actually a perfect precursor to the lesson, as grace had been on my mind.  The man in this video thought more than once that there was no way God cared about him; that there was no way he could repent enough for what he had done. He was ready to end it all, hiding in the bushes on that night all those years ago. But Heavenly Father spoke to him, "I'm still here".  He was reaching out to, asking this man to come to Him and accept the grace he created when He atoned for us.  He was there for him, and He is there for us. There is not one soul whom He cannot touch, who He cannot save. But we must accept that grace. We must allow Him to save us. If we do not, we depreciate Him and the suffering He went through in that garden over two-thousand years ago.

I know this is true! I have experienced it in my own life, giving in to the only One who has the power to redeem me.  And I will continue to return to grace each and every day of my life. Because of it, I know I will be able to return to live with the One who created me. Won't you too return to grace?

The Hand of God

I saw the absolute coolest thing in the news this morning; an image of a star that exploded 17,000 years ago that looks like an x-ray of a hand. It has been deemed "The Hand of God" by NASA. Look at it for yourself...it sure puts the AWE in awesome, doesn't it?

W.O.W. Seeing images of space, of the universe, never fail to make me feel the grandness and omniscience of God. In fact, one of my favorite things to do is to plainly and simply look at the sky (and when one can do it against the backdrop of the Wasatch front mountains, the view is even better!). I have always loved looking at pictures of space, of the universe.
As I have grown older, I have become more aware of and grateful for God's creations. And not just what's here on Earth, but the whole universe. He truly is the Master painter, sculptor, artist.  I am in complete awe and cannot find words to ever adequately describe the incredible-ness of His creations.  

Last night I enjoyed clicking through photo after photo from the Hubble Telescope website-I just LOVE the internet! Here are a few of my favorite pieces of the universe.

This is the Eagle Nebula, and has been my favorite "piece" of space since I first laid eyes on it as a child.

The Butterfly Nebula. Can I just say...WOW.

The Orion Nebula

A pillar of gas in the Eagle Nebula. So intricate and amazing!

A Spiral Nebula. Gorgeous!!!

Looking at any images of space makes me feel the greatness of God, and mans own nothingness. It makes us seem so small and insignificant.  But truthfully, we came from that. We were what is called, "Intelligences" before God made our spirit and physical bodies. He carefully plucked us from out there somewhere and made the rest of us. Of all of His creations, we are His greatest. We are a part of this grandeur. Man may be "nothing", but we as children of God, have the greatness of God within us. We have the ability to become like Him and create worlds and universes with our own hands, if we live for it. How awesome is that?!?

The 6 Blessings Challenge

Jason Wright wrote an article challenging readers to count six blessings that filled 2013.  Amidst reflecting on the past rough year and hoping for better things for the one to come, I immediately thought this would be a great way to change my current thought patterns. So here's six of the blessings that filled my 2013.

First, I had the amazing opportunity to go on a cruise to the Western Caribbean at the beginning of the year. I thought it would be a lot of fun and a great time to socialize with hundreds of other LDS singles. To my surprise, the best part of this whole experience was seeing the beauty of these areas of the earth and meeting the people that live there.  After meeting and getting to know a shop keeper on our first stop in Cozumel, I decided to get to know one person in each place we docked. It was amazing to meet some of my brothers and sisters that live in places so far away. To me it was like touching heaven.

 

Second, while I had moved into a new ward in 2012, it was in the early months of 2013 that I felt established and accepted in my new ward. I have met new friends that have been through similar challenges as I and we have been able to support each other. We all know that God put us in each others lives for a reason. These will be long-lasting relationships, what a gift!

Third, I have had more health challenges plague me this year, but I have received absolutely overwhelming support from friends and family. I had a thought a few years ago when I became so ill I was in the hospital, that even if the only reason I had gotten sick was to show me how much I really am cared about, I would be grateful. I have been shown how much I am loved in times when I have really needed it.

Fourth, I finally approached a problem with my teeth that I had brushed under the rug for several years. I found out I needed jaw surgery to fix it. I felt it was the right thing to do, but didn't think having my jaw sawed in half was an exciting occurrence-can you blame me? But a week after surgery I got to see my new smile for the first time and couldn't hold back the tears. My smile was healthy and beautiful!  I now have a healthy bite that isn't damaging my teeth or causing more problems with my jaw. The surgery was life-changing, and was a blessing I didn't realize at the time I made the decision to have it. That makes my joy and gratitude all the greater!

Fifth, I have experienced some great heartache and heartbreak this year that have brought me to my knees. While there I asked for many things-great and small-that I desired. And time and time again my prayers were answered with what I asked for. I have learned that God will answer our prayers, and sometimes in better ways than we could expect, so maybe we need to just ask Him for more of what we desire!  He'll find a way to grant us things that will bless us.

Sixth, I lost someone very dear to me this year. The last but greatest blessing of this year has been the pure and perfect love I have developed from having this person in my life that I never could have imagined. If there was one word I could use to sum up this past year it would be Love.  Not because I received it, but because I have felt and developed the kind of unconditional love our Heavenly Father has for His children. This is one of the greatest blessings I have ever received, and I am eternally grateful.

What are six of the blessings that filled your 2013?